The internet can not handle me...

Song of the moment: "Don't Worry, Be Happy" by Bob Marley

So, about 45 minutes into writing an ingenious introductory blog post, my wonderful internet browser (Safari..so much for Apple) decided to freeze like a popsicle. So, my "new" post is going to be written in a totally different mood. Camden, being the night owl she is had me breathe deeply. I decided that some Bob Marley would cheer me up. In combination, I think that my frustration went away pretty quickly.

So, this one day I swore to myself I would never have a blog. Then, a wise friend just randomly planted a seed in my mind. She said I always like writing and should put that to use and do this fun thing called a blog. In my miniscule mind I came up with the idea that it should be theraputic and mostly a big time-filler.

I am gonna turn this post into an introduction to me, and my rhetorical mannerisms. Through this post, you should be able to disect how I will write in the future and possibly who I am at my core. Don't try the last part though, I am not even sure of that one.

I intend on using this as a release for both boredom and for stress/frustrations. Some posts may be as sweet as Lucky Charms, and others might be as dark as my bedroom as I am writing this (it's not pitch black, my screen gives off a pretty good amount of light...). I am not bipolar or anything, but I guess you could say I have many emotional facets.

I really, really love two concepts of rhetoric. One of these happens to be humor. The other happens to be sarcasm. As one less than poetic Seminary teacher once said, "I have proof that God has a sense of humor...Look at all of you." I see humor and sarcasm as powerful tools that can used for both good and bad. I am not a pro at either of those two things, but I enjoy them both. If I can make you laugh just once, I am happy.

The reason my blog is entitled "Life Without a Censor..." is because I personally think a blog is all about being 100% honest and yourself. It is not about thinking carefully about how you word something or how you convey your thoughts. It is about writing as your mind releases thought after geniusly unique thought. Everything I say on here was simply written and never looked at again before pressing the button that says "Publish Post". This being said, if you disagree with me or think differently, please leave a comment with your uncensored thoughts.

I am beginning this "trendy" blog on a pretty big day in any kid's life. Today, I turned 18. I am legally an adult. I put this in italics because in all actuality, I think I am pretty far from being an adult. All of us 18-21 year olds are. For 90% of us, mom and pop are paying for a significant portion of college. We are not paying rent, and we are not working full time jobs. Just face it kids, we're still kids.

While a bright future is ahead for all of us, we have a long ways to go. So many people look at high school's end as the end of life as we know it. In some ways, it is. I'll never see 99% of those kids ever again. Do I care? Not really. I have my few close pals and they're all I'll need for the time being. I will someday separate from them and discover a new group of friends. I am not anticipating this at all, but I realize that it is going to happen.

That being said I would like to take this opportunity to go through everyone and saying something about them.

Keegan - Rollerblades and N64 used to be cool. We've always been great friends and I really appreciate all that you have done for me. You have always been an incredibly loyal friend. I do not know who my friends would have been had you not been around earlier in my life. I hope I have done enough for you to make you feel satisfied with me as a friend. I know I have let you down a time or two.

Emma - Well, you'll probably actually never read this, but I have to give you credit. You were a freaking awesome friend while we were in close touch. I always felt like I was a good person when I was around you. It is too bad we did not get to know each other sooner. I hope everything in your life is going good for you.

Brittany F - I could probably go on for ages and ages. You know how much I treasure you as a friend. You welcomed me into a group when I needed it most. You befriended me and treated me so well. You've always been there for me and I appreciate it. If there is one regret I have with you, it is doing something selfish and stupid to make it so we could end up losing the close friendship we had. Life has been really different without you there. It has not been bad at all, it has just been way different than I pictured. I am sure it is different than you pictured it too. All I can say to you is thank you, thank you, thank you. You are an amazingly gifted girl. You light up a room, make people laugh, and you're musically gifted. You have a really strong spirit about you and that is ultimately what counts. It was my pleasure to have been graced with your friendship for the time we were good friends. Let's not close any doors...

Brittany H - You like so many others have not been a huge part of my life for all that long. You have always been there, but I really was just immature and passed up many opportunities to have fun with you. You are smart, fun, honest and 100% good to the core from what I can tell. That is a quality that very few people possess. I really regret not trying to become better friends with you. I am sure that I have missed out on a ton of fun times. Keep smiling, laughing, and trying your hardest. You're going places. That is for sure.

Martha - I could have so easily stereotyped you and written you off. I am so glad I did not. I feel like I am talking to Oprah or something when I talk to you. You are honest, funny, and good spirited. You can keep a secret, well, most of the time at least. You're older than me and you have a been a great source for advice with life in general. I wish I had you as an older sister. I probably would be a better guy if I had an older sister.

Camden - we've been good friends off and on for the last while. You're really easy to talk to and I dunno anyone else who can carry on a sarcastic conversation for like an hour. I also do not know anyone bold enough to tell me my taste in music is odd. Well, the fact is, you are right. It is becoming normal-ish. The 3oh!3 is keeping it odd. Well, basically, I really appreciate you listening the many times you have. You always have an opinion, and a very honest one at that. I know that whatever you say is sincere. I am glad to call you my friend. You're a smart one.

Kyle - Yeah, we had a shaky past, but I will consider you a good friend my man. You always have a thought on any situation. If I am talking to you, you'll talk back. I hope you forgive me for all the crap I did in the past. I wish all of it never happened. So many friendships would not have been sacrificed. You are a determined kid, like no other kid I know. No girls camp prank is how it had to be. I appreciate you putting all the crazy guys in their place. WET TOWEL POWER!!! You are smart, creative, and sincere. Those are all very valuable personality traits. (sounds like an eHarmony commercial, my bad...)

Kevin - We've never been best buds or anything, but we always share some common ground. You're a blast to be around and your honest. You are a little bit of everything in fact. Ultimately, I wish I could take some of your qualities and make them my own. It is too bad I won't be seeing you at BYU! I'd love to have you as a snowboarding buddy! Come visit.

Alexis - I really have not gotten to know you extremely well. I wish I had. I am sorry for the miscommunications we had earlier this year. I did not hate you, I am pretty sure you did not hate me. Your ubiquitous smile and laughter is so awesome. I wish I had your laugh and smile. God's sense of humor was in action when I got my smile...! Well, I really wish I had become better friend with you. You need to keep everyone in check while we're gone. Make my sister go to girls' camp.

Amber - I am sad you kind of dropped off my radar. I really loved talking to you. You have a sarcastic wit to you that is prettyunique. I like wit, and I like unique. So, basically you are going to have an easy life because you have both of those things. Well, actually, it is because you are a nice, caring, thoughtful girl who takes life seriously. You know when to have fun, and when to be serious.

I have loads more people to write about, but I am exhausted. It is almost 2AM and I am still going. I need sleep, I need water, and I need sleep.

Peace Out!

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Song of the Moment: "Always Be" by Jimmy Eat World